Through a loss comes lessons

1.29.12

Four years ago today my husband lost his battle with cancer. It's a day like any other day for me; I miss him. I'm a very private person, few people really know me. I won't say much about our nine month journey through cancer treatment, nor much about our last month together through hospice. But I will say that God was there. It is a very personal journey between you and God. I saw that with my husband in his final days. It was between him and God, it had nothing to do with me anymore.

  Four years have come and gone and I have realized that the heart, with time, heals, but I'm not sure if it will ever be completely whole. I have learned that life is about giving, giving back, paying it forward and teaching. It's also about realizing your gifts and using them, because God gave them to you for a reason. I've heard that throughout my life because I lost sight of it, but I am finding it again. I have always seen the world as a drawing or a photograph. I'm sure it sounds strange to some, but it's normal to me. I have made the commitment this year to work on the process everyday, in some capacity. Drawing, painting, a shoot or editing.  It takes work, practice and studying. I know that now. It only took about 30 years :) What I do with it, is up to God. For right now, it's just for me.

1.23.12

Not quite done, almost.

1.22.12

I've been working on nine illustrations for a childrens book, so I haven't had much time to work on anything else. Tonight, I put that project aside and sketched a bit. A nice break from the childrens book.

1.18.12

There is nothing worse than disecting your own face in a self portrait. But, it's important, so I'm working on it.

1.15.12

  I went back to what I know, and now I can move forward. 

1.14.12

The Christmas break is officially over with my two daughters driving back to college today. The house is quiet and lends itself to work. So, I'm back to working on my project. 

1.12.12

Well my daughter and I spent the day at the Museum of Fine Arts Houston hoping to see the Tut exhibit, do a little sketching and a little shooting with our cameras. Tut exhibit~check, sketching~check, shooting~not much luck. Seems the rule is you can take a picture of the painting, but no one by the painting. So everytime I tried to shoot these wonderful people looking at the art work, I got my hand slapped by the room attendants. I managed to snap a few before I respected the rules and sat quietly and sketched. 

1.07.12

A day in the Heights with Meagan.

1.06.12

A night at Big Texas Saloon with Josh Abbott.

1.04.12

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1.02.12

I had an art professor tell me once that I should be drawing every day; anything, anywhere just do the work. I didn't really understand that concept then, but some thirty years later, I think I get it. Or, maybe I figure at 53, I better get started! So in 2012 I'm committed to Create 365. It's about the work, not the finished product. It's about studying, practicing, and pushing myself to grow; getting out of my comfort zone and just enjoying the work. For those of you fellow closet artists, I hope you will join me in the process. Painting, photography, design, music, dance, crafts. Create your own blog, commit to the process and share! Here's to a productive 2012!